ROBERT AND MARILYN

2010-04-22T12:09:00.000-07:00

Well it seems Im starting a new chapter in my life. In a few days I will be 55 shoo thats hard to believe but true. I've finished school and starting my new career. Full Specialist Nail Tech and Esthetician. Guess its never too late huh???? I'm feeling really really homesick for my family for some reason guess its because I live so far away from all of you. 55 that number keeps slamming my brain I think even harder than 50 did. Its just a number or so the saying goes but a dang big number if I dont say so myself. But lets leave that one alone for now..... I love my life here in Florida love love love my husband and I am so glad Forrest moved here I think I would of been or should I say I would of felt a little lost. I'm pretty upset at my daughterinlaw right now but I guess thats life shes just so immature some times and I don't think she has a clue that mothers have feelings too. Ok ok I'm venting but its just so frustrating. People dont live forever and I think you should charish every minute you are blessed to have with them. You know what scares me is the fact that I'm gonna be older than anyone lived on moms side outside of Dee Dee. It tears at my heart that none of them mom or dad got to grow old with us it was just too short and not enough time to share everything with them maybe thats why 55 is bothering me so much I want time but only God can decide our fate. Anyway if this isnt depressing sorry just have a little on my mind and I needed to talk about it. I love you guys and miss you all

2009-07-31T17:29:00.001-07:00

hi everyone. Just wanted to let you know that yesterday we lost hank. It was so sad and hard. Still is. the house feels so empty and its really very sad to go home. tom Foley from the tampa bay rays called and told us they made a jersey for him and we are suppose to pick it up Sunday. hat was the last smile I got from hank when I told him it was his birthday present from them. his birthday is aug 4th but he never made it and he never gets to see his jersey. I am going to frame it for him. Well my head is kind of a mess so I will let you go for now. I love you all

2009-07-27T18:46:00.000-07:00

well hi everyone. So guess what the third base coach for the rays called me tom Foley some of you baseball fans probably know who he is.Anyway hes been keepin in touch with us and said he will come see hank when he gets home that is so exciting anyway just wanted to update all of you on the rays thing. hank god that hank is still with us but he is looking so frail. I miss you all very much and kinda wonder if it werent for these websites we probably wouldnt have much contact. to me that is sad. But anyway love you all and see ya on farmtown.....

TIME TO REFLECT

2009-07-09T17:35:00.000-07:00

Hi.... everyone. I thought it was probably time to talk to you all since its been in forever. Alot has been goin on in my life and don't really know where to start. My brother wrote an awesome blog the other day about his memories of our dad. Made me start thinkin bout all sorts of things. Our dad died when I was 12 only time I am glad I was the oldest sibling because I remember him very well. He was a wonderful man worked hard all his life, loved his family life and was never never angry. Thats hard to believe but I can never remember a time when he was angry except once when I was about 10 and decided to try out the talkin back thing like I said the key word was (try). That was not a good idea but I tried it anyway. Worked my butt off for the next week lol but I never tried that one again. When he was diagnosed with cancer I really didn't realize exactly what that meant but I remember having to stay at our aunts house because back then kids couldn't be around someone with cancer. Never understood that. I wanted my dad and then when we finally got to see him in our home that we weren't aloud in he was this little frail man laying in bed and still he was smiling acting like nothing was wrong. I remember them telling us he was gone and how lonely that felt and it took me a few years to admit he was gone to anyone which probably wasn't very healthy but it made me feel like he was still there. Now at this point in my life I'm watching my father-in-law go through this and its so hard. Hes coming to the closing of this life faster than we all hope and I'm wondering can I stay strong for Robert. He is the love of my life and this is really taking a toll on us mainly because I really don't think either of us know how to handle this and what it will be like when it does happen. He wants to stay home with us until the end thats scarey to me hes been like a father to me and I want to be able to be that shoulder for Robert so long story short I'm scared to death of the end. Our moods of short tempers,sometimes makes it feel like we are drifting apart but I think thats us grasping at something else to take our pain out on. It feels like we should need each other more but stress thats such an ugly word. And stress is a main factor in our lives right now. I love him with all my heart and I know he loves me and that will be all we need to get through this. So eventually we will be back to normal again but for now our main focus is making Hank my father-in -law comfortable and happy. I was trying desperately to get a Rays player to come meet him but no one will answer he spends his happiest times watching there baseball games every night. He loves that team so I thought it would be awesome for him to meet one. Scratch that idea can't get anyone to answer my emails and time is running out. So I guess hes stuck with us. Anyway take care I love you all and see most of you on facebook

2009-04-18T12:18:00.000-07:00

Ok so I've been doing this getting slim thing for 3 days now and I have lost 3 lbs. I am excited and hope it continues. 1 lb a day I can def handle. I know 3 lbs don't sound like much but its a start and hey its better than gaining 3 lbs and it really isn't torcher or anything. So I just thought I'd keep who ever is interested posted. love you guys

Starting my new adventure

2009-04-16T07:33:00.000-07:00

So today I am starting a new chapter in my life. Its called getting rid of the extra person I am carrying around with me. I am at that time in my life when I am ready for a change , tired of bein fat and have found an inspiring person that I hope will help me. I went to school with a guy named Bobby Elliott now referred to as Bob and he has a plan that I hope will get rid of these extra pounds I refer to as my extra person. Today is my first day of my new way of thinkin and hopefully will stay that way for my entire life. After all next week I will be 54 and I think now is as good a time as any to start thinkin healthy. So keep your fingers crossed for me and pray I can have the strength and will to keep on this. I am ready willing and able to try as hard as I can. Time will tell I guess. So i will keep you all posted on my progress.......Will talk to you later love you all

2009-02-22T19:24:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone. Thought maybe I should post a new blog its been way too long. Well my hubby will be 40 tomorrow geez to be 40 again. He says he feel old what about me??? Guess you are only as old as you feel huh?? Riley is getting big and is definately in the puppy mode. He is a pain in my you know what most of the time can a puppy have add???? His attention span is non existing most of the time. But I still love him. Its soooo nice to be with the kids again. I am one happy momma. I really want to get another job but Im not sure how easy that will be. I guess I will just start sending my resumes out and hope for the best because its obvious that im never gonna get a transfer too many people leave but that is because our manager is so awlful. But hopefully I will find something better soon. Anyway not much happening here lately so take care and love you all

2009-01-09T18:46:00.001-08:00

I'm sorry everyone I guess I've been slackin. Not much been goin on I have been work way too much as usual but hey thats life. The kids got here all safe and sound and they moved into their house. They are lookin for work but no luck yet. Forrest might start at the company Robert is at but that will be in about a month. They paid rent till March so that gives them a little time to look. We had a good Christmas and thankyou Randy and Karen for the dvd it was great as usual. Deb sent me some big hunks yum yum thanks deb. It's been pretty nice weather here and we went to the beach a few times with the kids that was fun. Robert took some pics of the sunset which I will add when i'm done writing. Wish i could lose about 40 lbs but I am lazy and need a personal trainer to kick my rearend into shape. Thought maybe with stacey here I would get motivated but that hasn't happened to either of us yet. Any suggestion guys???? Well take care miss and love you all..... and I'll try not to take so long in between blogs.

2008-12-16T08:30:00.000-08:00

Good morning well the kids are heading into Texas today they should be here some time on thursday. Long drive with a trailer attached to your vehicle. We took some pics of our neighborhood last night and a few of our house but we aren't done yet some keep that in mind when you look at the pics and by far I am not a photog. Its gonna be 80 here today and I see Oregon is bein hit with snow burrrr. Theres a snow storm thats following Forrest hopefully they will be out of that soon Texas looks clear after that I think they will be in good weather. Anyway don't laugh at my pics I'm trying love you all and have a good day.

2008-12-08T06:13:00.001-08:00

Hi everyone. So yesterday we were out looking at houses for Forrest which we finally got them one it's like 1 mile from us but anyway, we were on our way home and seen the SPCA was set up with puppies for adoption at the fire station so we stopped. We adopted a lil boy lab puppy his name is Riley. We get to bring him home on tuesday and I am so excited although Robert has 2 old cats that will probably not welcome their new lil brother with open arms maybe open claws but I'm sure not with love. But he will not be a lil guy for long so hopefully they will get used to him before then. I'm so excited my kids coming new puppy and a wonderful husband what more could a girl want. Besides the rest of her family to be here also. We will work on that right guys???? Anyway heres a pic of Riley for you to see. Love you all

2008-12-01T05:51:00.000-08:00

Good morning everyone... Well its 2 weeks before the kids are here. Its gonna be so great to have them close. On a different note black friday was kinda grey in ross land we really wasn't that busy but we did make the forecasted sales which keeps us from having to cut payroll. That is a good thing. Was that suppose to be weren't oh well you know what I mean. Good thing I'm not the journalist huh??? I think our plans for Christmas this year is to spend Christmas eve with Roberts family and then leave that night for Orlando with the kids and spend Christmas day at Disney World. They have a huge parade that day and get to go on a lil mini vacation with my son like we always wanted to do. As they say its never too late to start living. I guess he went to visit his father to say good bye and let him see the grandkids before they move and his fathers girlfriend fell with Faith our granddaughter leaving her with a blackeye. So long story short Forrest isn't talking to them anymore. He got to get alot of bottled up emotions out that day which I need to do but at least one of us got that off our chests. Maybe now Forrest can be or should I say feel closer to Robert that actually wants to be the father figure that Forrest never really got to experience. That makes me so happy that he (Robert) wants to be a part of their lives. We all know just how bad a step father can be without mentioning any names..... Faith has 3 teeth and Poor Andrew called the other day and said Grandma last night was kinda sad.. I ask why and he said Cause I lost my last baby tooth... Ah I felt so bad for him but I told him now you get to start doing big boy stuff then he got excited. The things we worried about when we were kids huh??? Now if we lose our last tooth ummmm thats not a good thing right???lol So anyway have a wonderful day see some of you in dog world and green spot. Kinda fun sites huh??? love ya.

2008-11-20T06:34:00.001-08:00

Good morning everyone. Still house hunting for Forrest. Can't wait till they get here. It's been cold here the last week can't believe I call 50 cold but think I've became a Floridian all of a sudden. Brrrrrr... what a wooos but it does feel cold. I remember feeding my horse at 2 below with wet hair and not feeling this cold. Funny how the body changes isn't it??? Almost turkey day and guess we are going to Robert's moms house for Thanksgiving. No cooking for me which means no left overs bummer how am I suppose to make homemade turkey and noodles I always make that. Hmmmm guys that will have to wait until Christmas. No ham for this girl besides they don't have good hams here like we did in Oregon. And can you believe no big hunk candy bars here Robert didn't even know what they were till we went to Oregon for vac. Deb hooked us up guess I'll have to send to Oregon for some cause they are gooooddd. Ah the simple pleasures. Anyway have a wonderful day and keep warm...lol

2008-11-15T13:15:00.001-08:00

So its Saturday and we have been searching craigs list for a house for Forrest and Stacey found about too many wow theres alot of houses out there. Rent isnt too bad here like 800 for a 2 bdrm which I guess they could handle. I'm still way excited and can't wait to see them again. Sad thing is no time off during Christmas which is when they will be here. But oh well will have plenty of days off to enjoy them. Stacey said she will miss a white Christmas so I guess we will have to take them to the beach white sand Christmas guess that will do. I know what Deb is talking about in her blog about the retail holidays they start all too soon. Geez we are already getting swim suit and shorts in probably for the spring break season. Course I guess here a swim suit would be a good Christmas present right?? We do have very beautiful beaches here . Stacey came to visit me not long after I got to Florida and we went to the beach. I was so amazed by how white the sand was and how blue the water was and warm oh my gosh it feels like a pool. I said out loud look how pretty the ocean is here and was informed by a man passing by that it wasn't the ocean its the gulf of Mexico. Well it looks like the ocean to me..... my bad!!!!! Talk about bursting my bubble still call it the ocean though so there man on the beach!!!!!!!!So it is what it is I guess. If you can't see any land out there it must be an ocean right? Its salty aren't oceans salty???? Puzzles me....... Oh well huh! well have a wonderful day and talk at you soon

2008-11-14T06:21:00.000-08:00

So, I found out last night some very good news!!!!! Forrest and his lil family are moving to st pete next month. Yahoo kid grandkids and daughterinlaw. So they will be looking for jobs on line and will get a place when they get here. That makes me a very happy girl. Now thats 4 down and the rest of you can follow right???? Glad you are up and running Randy train train train..... Well gotta get off to work land just wanted everyone to know my news love you all and have a good day

FEELIN A BIT HOMESICK TODAY

2008-11-04T07:13:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone its voting day and I'm really wondering who will it be. Its a cloudy day here today and probably why I'm feelin a lil down. I really want to go home with my family see everyone hug my grandkids that are growing up way to fast. Don't get me wrong I love my life here with the most awesome husband a girl could ask for but I miss everyone back home. Never really thought I'd miss Oregon but thats where my roots are and I guess getting all of you to move here is out of the question and I'm desparately trying to make my transfer happen but, then I wonder if we move back to Oregon is Robert gonna be happy after all this is where everyone and everything hes ever known is. Is that fair??? Is there a happy medium somewhere? And Randy and Karen are like half a world from me hmmmm.... gotta get us all together somehow. And I miss my dog I should of taken him with me when I left poor baby he must just hate me. Bucky a big 120 lb black lab that was the baby of our chocolate lab that we got the day bj died. Hes really a very special dog to me and he was by my side through everything I was going through and was always so there for me. I wonder sometimes if he seen me now would he still remember me??? I probably would steal him if I got the chance but, no I guess I couldn't do that since he hasn't been with me for 3 years now. He actually could say momma believe it or not and he always sat and watched out the window for me to come home. Booohooo I'm a mean mom. Then I think what rights has Randy got to have anything that was mine but I guess it all comes down to I gave up all my rights when I left which I wouldn't change for anything. I think maybe a little bit of anger is coming out RODE TO RECOVERY!!!!!!!!! One can only hope. Anyway have a wonderful day and don't forget to hug your dog today.

YOU REALLY MISSED ME???????

2008-10-25T15:09:00.000-07:00

Well so I guess I was missed??? Just been having those horrible days at work trying to manage being around an unmanageable manager if you can relate. It seems no matter where you work there is always someone that can ruin it. She really has no business even being a manager let alone my boss. OOOOH we went to Fort Desoto the other day and was having a great time on the beach together gather seashells and just walkin along when all of a sudden OUCH I stepped on a jelly fish that stung the bottom of my foot that was no fun. Kind of felt like a bee sting. But its better now. The weather has been kind of dreary here lately so I've been a lil depressed I hate that. And no Randy we don't have world series tickets I wish..... I love baseball. Although my yankees didn't make it. We only live about 15 minutes from the stadium but no tickets bummmmmer!!!!!!! Robert almost had to go out of state again but they changed their mind thank goodness so he is workin here this trip. I wish I had a traveling job sometimes then maybe I could see some of the places I haven't seen which is wide open so I could just about go anywhere and it would be new to me. But for now I will be content with being home with my husband. Of course there is alot of places real close to us I haven't seen so maybe a weekend trip or something.Anyway hurry up and buy me tickets to Hawaii bro..... lol maybe one of us will win the lottery how nice would that be. So take care and talk to you all soon...

waiting..waiting...waiting

2008-10-13T08:33:00.000-07:00

I am a very happy girl today Robert is like 10 hrs away yahooooo. Can't wait kinda feels like a first date. I just feel like half of me is gone when he goes out of town. Must be love huh??? This love thing is all new to me its actually kinda awesome if I don't say so myself. I have so much to do today clean house..... wait..... laundry .......wait ..... Long process to get him home. Hope he missed me half as much as I do him. Well anyway better get busy I know so I can hurry up and wait...... Love you all

2008-10-10T10:34:00.000-07:00

hi everyone I added a few of my favorite song for you to listen to. The top 2 song I think sometimes fit my mood or should I say fit my mental state quite a bit. Sometimes I think your big sis is a mess and really these blogs help, you know if I keep talking maybe some of my feelings will disappear and I won't get depressed days. I think the worse thing is the fact that I've never really had any feelings about changing my life. One thing I know is god wants us to forgive the weak minded people like my x for instance but I'm not sure I can. Does that make me a bad person in his eyes? Believe me I've tried I am numb to the whole thing no hate no forgiveness nothin. Ive talked to doctors about that and they said I was never gonna feel better if I didn't let those feelings out. Where are they and how can I let them out? Most of the time I just think that thinkin bout all that stuff isn't worth the agony that it gives me although if I could I would probably hate him but again hes not even worth the time to hate. But, every once in awhile the reminders of that time pops in my head like a migraine. I guess some day I will have to tell you guys the extent of my life but for now just bare with me and hopefully it will go away. Robert is so the opposite of Randy thank you God for letting us find each other which I think is a blessing from afar. And poor Robert hes been through lots of my bad days but thankfully hes very supportive. So if I sometimes sound a lil whacky hopefully you will understand. I love you all

STRUGGLING TO FIND MYSELF

2008-10-09T05:45:00.000-07:00

Well hi to all of you and I suddenly realized something after reading my brothers and sister-in-laws blogs that we are alot alike. Although I have a very happy marriage sometimes no strike that all the time I feel something is missing. At 53 I'm starting to feel I don't know,whats the words I'm trying to say maybe a little insecure about myself. I too am in that second phase of my life and I too have always been that timid person that probably missed out on lots of things because of that. I want to change all that and open up have some fun try new things that I could possibly fail at but hey at least I tried right???? I miss my family and really all I have ever wanted in my life was to have a happy marriage be the best mom ever now grandma and enjoy my family. But for too much of my life I was controlled and made to do things I never wanted to do like not being able to keep in touch with my brothers and sisters. Why are there people that control us and why do we allow them too. you know day before our mom past away she begged me to come see her but of course I wasn't allowed. That saddens me beyond sad and infuriates me that I allowed that to happen. Then when I did get to see her she was in the hospital and I was called out to go home. Should of stayed I probably will never forgive myself or him for that. I know I will never allow someone to control me like that again and I guess thats why I love Robert so much he actually allows me to be me. Which as far as I can tell I am a pretty nice person. But for some reason I've become this jealous wife for no good reason other than I really haven't figured that out yet. Maybe its our age difference or something. And poor Robert all he ever does is try to make me happy which he does so why do I feel this way???? Now hes gone for 2 or 3 weeks and I'm miserable. I am working on that jealous thing and I think maybe I should do something other than just go to work. I'm not saying triathalon or anything because frankly I think that would kill me..... lol... but I need to focus on positives instead of negatives and enjoy this ride they call life. Anyway I love all of you guys and I am sorry I allowed someone to keep me away from all of you. Hope you will forgive me... take care and talk at you later

2008-10-03T05:35:00.000-07:00

Ah, October I love Halloween month. Don't know exactly why but it brings the kid out in me. Can't wait to climb in the attic and dig out all the Halloween decorations we have. And all those cute lil trick or treaters. Just a fun time for me. I remember the first time I took Forrest trick or treating I know I had more fun than him. He was like 2 and we lived in Sweet Home at the time took him to the avenues anyone thats lived there knows where that is because thats where we would get our mega stash of candy each year. Anyway we went out and about an hr into it he wanted to go home poor kid and me of course I said one more house ok??? Well I finally gave in and took him home where he totally had more fun handing out the candy than receiving it. Whats wrong with that picture oh well, it was still fun. Back when I was a kid that was the most exciting nite of the year except when Santa came yahoo!!!!!! tons of new toys and of course the nite before present we always got to open. That was aaallllwwwaaaaayyyyssssssssss pajamas. Just so we wouldn't look raggity on Christmas morning for all those pictures. Childhood!!!! No worries, no problems wonderful life. Didn't it seem like time went by slower then? Maybe if we started wondering how much longer till Christmas or Halloween or exciting things like that time would slow down again like when we were kids. Geez I think I was like 13 or something before I realized who Santa really was. Thats the joy of being the oldest kid in the family you get to be that kid the longest. I know when I had my son all I wanted was for him to have the same wonderful childhood I remembered having mostly always happy and having fun and just being able to be that kid.Then it was can't wait to be 18 and out of school now what ? then can't wait to be 21 drinkin legal!!! big deal by then it was no fun anymore, then wow I'm 30, bam 40, then no way 50??? wow where did the time go??? when I was young people 50 were old. Funny I don't feel old. Time is a strange thing don't you think? Well time to get ready for work can't wait, hey I'm getting into the can't wait mode see if it slows things down a lil. Anyway have a great Friday

2008-10-01T06:35:00.000-07:00

You know after reading Karen's blog I suddenly realized something why do you always long for the things you wanted to get away from in the first place? Maybe its the feeling of adventure in the unknown I guess. When I was in Oregon all my life I wanted to see places go places and be anywhere but there. Oh don't get me wrong I still want those all exciting vacations but as Dorothy said, THERES NO PLACE LIKE HOME. There's alot of truth to that statement but, what happened to home is where you hang your hat? Karen maybe we should buy a hat. And I love my life in Florida with Robert but I too miss my family and Forrest, Stacey and the grandkids. I miss seeing the sun set over the snow mountains all pink and beautiful. And theres really nothing like waking up on Christmas morning and seeing everything covered in snow. Of course that really doesn't have to hang around for 3 months, I do remember getting tired of seeing all white. It is beautiful here in a very different way than Oregon we really don't have the seasons here either. But I think fall is my fav in Florida. Crisp mornings ,you know 70 or something but after having those humid mornings fall is nice. Not much rain and honestly if I could I'd live in Oregon half the year and Florida the other. Guess thats a goal to go after huh? And Karen those darn kids can"t they just stay home??? Well, maybe not home home but close so we could at least see them. I guess maybe when their kids are grown and wondering around the world they will see what we go through. Anyway I feel your pain and your happiness so you are not in that boat alone. everyone have a great wednesday and talk at you all soon. Listen to me ,I think I'm sounding a bit southern you all!!!!! love ya

2008-09-26T04:04:00.000-07:00

well I guess its time to post something. I guess I ran out of things to whine about.lol!!!! So its barely daylight here I had to take Robert over the very high skyway bridge this morning so he could go to work in Miami. For one thing its too dang early and it was still dark when we went over the bridge so didn't even get to enjoy the great view from up there. Wait is that a whine I'm hereing. Must be back on track now, shooo had myself worried there for a minute.Thats the bad thing about his job always having to travel but I guess most people don't hire moving crews to move across town. Roberts nephew is in town from Kentucky his name is Andrew and he was Roberts best man in our wedding anyway hes in the army and is getting sent to afganistan in a month so he came home to see everyone. Hes really a nice kid and he snuck of and got married to a girl he met well you guessed it in a chat room. like uncle like nephew or so the saying goes. They actually got married like two weeks before us. Needless to say the grandma was not impressed. So everyone tried to keep it a secret during our wedding until it was time to throw the garter and Andrew didn't go out to catch it. Grandma said Andrew you better get out there and someone said why would he hes already married. A BIIIIGGGGG WHOOPS!!!! She again was not impressed.But alls well that ends well and now shes ok with it after a year. She kind of had to raise Andrew because Roberts sister Kim past away about 9 or 10 years ago of skin cancer. And shes a very controlling person in the first place so you can see why she took this so hard. Mother in laws can't live with em and definately can't live with em. But thats another story so I won't get into that at the moment. Still waiting for my transfer to Oregon but then I'm thinkin how the heck are we gonna move thats the thing about a transfer kinda have to go when the opportunity arises.Don't really want to lose my job because they do pay me well and if I moved there and got a new one the money probably wouldn't be as good so I guess we'll deal with that when the time comes.All I know is I 'm way homesick and miss my family terribly. I finally did get to talk to Forrest 2 days ago and he reminded me mom do you realize in 2 years I'll be 30. I said thanks for reminding me and making me feel the o word. Oh well age is all what you make of it. I have to stay young since my husband is still only 39. Thats the hard thing I told him I'd go backwards and he could go forward till we were the same age. I don't know think that will work??? anyway have a great Friday and love you all

2008-09-21T18:25:00.000-07:00

Well today is Sunday and you guessed it day off. So, we snacked, napped, and watched football. And my Bears got whooped by Roberts stupid bucs. But I don't think they would of if it hadn't been for a bogus call from the ref. Oh well next time all I can say is GO BEARS!!!!!!!!!! On a different note my little boy turned 28 today. Where did the time go. And the worst part of it is I can't even get ahold of him to tell him happy birthday. It's tough bein a mom and even tougher when your kid lives on the other side of the country from you. And I know I used little boy and 28 in the same sentence but to me he will always be my little boy . So in my heart I'm saying happy birthday son I love you. omg I almost forgot, gotta tell you what happened to me yesterday. I went on break at work and I got my bottle of water out of the freezer and opened it took 1 tiny little sip out of it because the ice was pushing out and it smelled funny and within 1 min of taking that sip my lips started burning really bad then they started to swell then my tongue and roof of my mouth started swelling. I paniced how can you have an allergic reaction to water???? Only me. There is a nurse practitioner at the grocery store by my work so I walked down there and by the time I got there my nostrils were starting to swell. She told me I was having an allergic reation to something DUH I was thinking she ask me what I had eaten and I hadnt eaten anything that day except that sip of water. So she made me take 50 mil of benedril. well 30 min later I couldn't keep my eyes open, but the swelling was going down. Needless to say I kept that bottle of water and I'm gonna call the manufacture of it on Monday. What is this world coming to when you can't even drink water? Scarey huh???? anyway have a great week and talk soon

2008-09-19T18:18:00.000-07:00

Happy Friday everyone. Well finally off work and back to the grind tomorrow but I get Sunday off this week. Yahoo!!!! We are collecting money at work for the red cross to fund hurricane Ike victims. I never thought I'd have to worry about that.And I feel really sorry for all the people that lost there homes or even worse someone they love. It amazed me how many people won't donated even a dollar. Its a sad society we live in these days. I honestly can't wait to move back too a small town instead of a big city. Not much of a city girl I guess. This town kind of reminds me of living in Vegas Debbie do you remember how rude the people were there back then? I do. So, I was driving to work today and all of a sudden theres all these hugh sheets of paper all over the road. People are dodging in and out of traffic to miss them, remember we are going around 60 mph and people drive like maniacs here. So, shoooo I missed one crap theres another one did I hit it didn't here nothing must not of but where did it go???? Oh good a red light I'd get out and look but in 4 lanes of traffic nah I'll wait ,I'm thinkin. Then bein the space cadet that I can be I'm off in lala land drivin along thinkin about who knows and forgot all about even looking. Not very smart huh? I get to work and then leave and go to lunch still not remembering hey stupid look for paper why isn't my air conditioning working very well. Hmmmm paper never crossed my mind. Finished working and got in my car to leave and this couple stopped me as I was leaving the parking lot and he pulled this huge piece of paper out of my car. I have a chrysler sebring so it has a big opening on the front which to my surprise was filled with paper. All I can say is I guess I should of got out at the light and checked. Don't seem to have done any damage to anything and hey the air is working perfect now go figure. But anyway have a great Friday night. see ya

2008-09-18T06:54:00.000-07:00

Good morning everyone. Well its back to work today oh boy!!! You ever wondered why couldn't I have been born rich? Yea me too. But then what would we complain about? Little things like where should I go today or maybe what do I want to buy today? I honestly can't imagine living like that. Work may suck but hey when you do finally save up that money for a vacation or that special something you wanted to buy its ssssssssssssssooooooooooooooooooooo exciting. At least for me anyway. Kinda gives you a goal in life. On a different note had to spend the night by myself last night because Robert had to work out of state. That really sucked. Its amazing how much I missed him. You know couldn't make myself go to bed then when I finally did it was toss and turn till I was totally exhausted don't really remember falling asleep but woke up at almost 8. Thats a sleep in to me. So I guess my body needed sleep or my brain was trying to pass the time away so he would be home sooner. My sister does this all the time because her husband is a truck driver I honestly dont know how she does it. Although in my first marriage you know the one I sort of told you about in an earlier blog I would of taken any number of days away from that. Is that mean to say??? There was days when I prayed he would cheat on me so I wouldn't feel bad about leaving him. But, if he did cheat I didn't know about it. And finally I left anyway. And with Robert the 8 hrs a day I have to work is way too long to be away from him. You know that song addicted to love? well I think I may be. Mush.........mush.......... Well so much for that it all boils down to the soulmate thing I guess. Its that half of me missing feeling that grabs you in your stomach isn't love grand???????? Its the best and I hope everyone out there gets to experience it at least once in a life time. Have a good day. Talk at you soon........

2008-09-17T08:35:00.000-07:00

So I,m in day off mode. you would think living in Florida known as the sunshine state I'd be out in the sunshine. But, as you can see I,'m sitting here behind the computer. I mean ,I could go to the beach after all its 10 min away beautiful aqua water and snow white sand but the wonderful life of retail land gives me no days off with my husband hardly ever. Boo hoo sorry for whining. Some day I'm gonna have a job thats mon-fri 8-5 how awesome would that be??? And with one brother and his family in Hawaii and the rest of my family in Oregon this is about the only way I get to make contact with them, which I guess sitting behind this computer isnt all that bad then. We recently went to Oregon and I got to see all of them except the Hawaii ones missed you alot not being there bro but hopefully we can plan one again with ALL of us. I really want Robert to me you thank goodness my new husband loves family things. By the way did I mention hes awesome? Just a reminder if I did'nt. There will be days I'm sure that awesome won't be the word I use because hey we are normal I think anyways. But I probably would save you all the agony of hereing about us arguing. My goals for the near future are to get us moved back to Oregon if a transfer would ever come through and then once we are there try to go to Hawaii to see Randy Karen and family before they don't live there anymore. Hey maybe by our 2nd anniversary we can do it. And I can't wait to hold our little granddaughter again and hug our grandson. Its so great to be a grand parent. Doesn't mean you are old because I refuse to act or feel old. You know keep the upper hand on that sort of thing. my sister Deb got a new collie pup and hes soooo cute and cuddley looking in his pictures I only hope he makes her as happy as her last dog did. but anyway have a wonderful day everyone and talk at you soon.

2008-09-15T05:35:00.000-07:00

Did'nt mean to sound sad in my last post but, as they say life truely begins at 50, for me anyway. And believe me if you are in the same kind of situation I was in there is light at the end of the tunnel. Even if there is someone making you feel that you are the most worthless human being. You are not!!!!! Its funny how one person in this world out of everyone can make you feel that way. You know when you finally have someone to talk to about this kind of situation the best advice that they give you is just leave. But, as I found thats easier said than done. First of all you get to that point in your life after being told you are worthless that you actually believe it, and pulling your old self out of that is one of the hardest things that you will probably ever do. One thing I can totally say is its definately worth it and being sad and controlled is not in my life anymore. So my best advice for someone is not just leave but, find yourself and ask is this the way I want to spend the rest of my life? I think deep inside you would say no. And leaving is hard because most of us think of our vows which I consider sacred but if there is no love or respect then there is no marriage so sometimes the vows just ended up on the wrong pair of people. They say everyone has a soulmate I have found this is true. You can feel it without a doubt....... That one person that makes you feel like ummm I guess I wanna say like you finally came home. Life is beautiful and happy and is definately not a torcher chamber. so I vow to live life to the fullest I can and always be happy. You should too!!!!!! Happiness to you........

2008-09-14T18:17:00.000-07:00

well second time in blogland feels kinda ummm should i say good. anyway life in Florida where do I start? First of all I ended up here because at 50 I decided to run away from home. Yea I know that sounds kinda weird but hey you gotta do what you gotta do. Started out in oregon in a long 29 yr loveless marriage you know wasnt aloud to have friends was made to feel like I was worthless you know the mental and physical abuse thing well to shorten the story I was messing with my cell phone one night and I found this chat room. Wait its not like it sounds honest. Anyway I met lots of people some good some not so good and built my friends online. That way I could talk to people and try to feel a little normal without my x ever knowing. Was kinda dangerous considering if he would of caught me all hell would of broken out. But as I said life goes on. Then one day in December I chatted with this guy in Florida well do you see where Im going with this? Anyway he made me smile and laugh and not have that worthless feeling every time we talked. I felt like I had found the other half of my heart. I dont know maybe thats how you know you found your soul mate. I told him all about me and my life and he was always just a phone call away with sweet things to say and just the right words when I needed it. so one day me and my son Forrest was coming home from town and out of the blue he said I needed to get away from his dad before something bad happened so I did. He gave me a black eye and when he fell asleep I left with only my clothes that I could carry. I bought a ticket to Florida and waited to leave. That was probably one of the worst days I had ,leaving my kid and grandson and my family I was never aloud to see. But I did it and of course I had the flights from hell. got stranded in Chicago for hours on the plane waiting for the wings to get defrosted, oh by the way I was still in shock at this time and really wasnt feeling any kind of emotions. So all the time I sitting on this plane I cant call Robert because oh yea Robert is who I was going to meet in Florida, anyway because they wouldnt let us use our phones. So I sat there in this stuper. Finally we took off like 4 hrs later seriously it sucked. When we landed I called Robert and told him I was finally here and he said give me 20 min., so I went and got my luggage and sat on it patiently waiting when out of the blue it struck me, oh my god what am I doing? what if he doesnt like me? what if hes a killer? I know that sounds far fetched but these days how do you know. I just convinced myself oh well it cant be any worse than what I had just left. So back to the sitting..... and waiting.......and geez it felt like every minute was an hour. Then I seen him of course until now all I had was photos so I mean I think thats him ok calm down hey hes cute shoooo ok a cute killer stop my brain was going a hundred miles an hr in this one minute. Hes looking around as hes coming through the door and then he looks at me. Hes smiling im smiling and a little teary eyed must be jet lag.... then he does it he kissed me on my forehead. I dont know about any of you but to a girl that hadnt been kissed in well years and years that was the most wonderful kiss I had ever had. we got in the pickup and headed to his house I sat against the door, hey dont laugh I was new at this dating if you could call it that thing. He ask me to scoot over by him said he didnt bite so nervously I moved over kind of embarrassed Im 50 remember????? Then it happened we stopped at a red light and he kissed me just a little light one wow!!!!!!!!!!!! It may sound weird but his lips felt so familiar to me. My soul mate??? I knew right then I was going to spend the rest of my life with this man.So to make a long story short 2 years later we married. I love him so much and he still makes me feel like that first kiss, safe, loved and very very happy. Sounds like an e harmony commercial but I owe it all to sprints chatroom. Thankyou sprint...

2008-09-11T10:13:00.000-07:00

so i finally made it to blogspot and geez it only took a couple months guess bone head would be the word. I looked at the pix of Daniels grad and I am so proud of him a Marine thats awesome. well here in florida we were just brushed by hurricane ike thank goodness for brushings. So far I havent had to deal with a real hurricane and I for one am not looking forward to that if I ever have to. Anyway I guess Im here in blog land and will get better as I figure this out.